As we drift farther apart I sink into depression more and more every second I can't hear or see her. I don't know why, but something in me is telling me to laugh at her when she is sad and to hate her for no reason. I don't know why, but I won't let it control me. I could never hate her, but it once got the better of me and when she was crying a grin spread across my face and a giggle escaped my throat. Acursed darkness that lies within me...curse you to burn in the deepest and darkest depths of the eternally burning hell! For this I apoligize to my beloved, I won't ever let the darkness within me catch me off gaurd again!!! I could never hurt her, either physically or emotionally. I know I love her and this is the powerful advantage that I have against the darkness, hehe...we don't get to be with eachother much, but when I look into her eyes I just drift off into a better place. I snap back into the harshness that is reality to catch myself before she can notice...I wish she'd look back into my eyes as well though -_- I'm glad to say I haven't felt hate for her fora while, well...time for bed...even thought I'm not going to school tomorrow. As a girl once told me as I now tell you "See you in my dreams...my darling" -wink wink-
-Ms. Grim Reaper
About Me
- Gabby Lopez
- i love to sing, dance, and act, but i have major stage fright and i can't dance unless i've been taught moves, or a routine. :( i especially love to sing becuase people always tell my i have a great voice and when i sing people light up with a big smile and making people smile is just the greastest feeling in the enitre world!!! i've also been singing since i was young and it really makes me happy whenever i'm upset so it helps a lot, i get in trouble a lot for humming for singing in class but i dont mind much because in the cassroom i get to see others smile...including friends. ^_^
yo its ok i know how u feel its a good thing that u didnt mention the persons name cause then oh that would have been efed up but its ok so like ya
ReplyDeleteHIGH FIVE REBECCA!!! :0 I totally agree. Basically what I'm saying now is what Rebecca sed, but if you feel something is funny though it may seem sorta wrong well it's funny to you. It's good that you try to hide it because you unlike 90% of Newyorkers actually have very nice manners. I understand why you try to hold in that laugh because you love that person and your doing it for her sake. It makes sense. But just so you know you shouldn't feel as bad because you think it's wrong. You just have to say "fuck it" to ethics because it's obvious that your laughing because that's you and that is NOT gonna change.
ReplyDeletelol, thx joelle ^_^
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